The Scorpio Woman

Now, I know some of you don’t read into this sort of thing, but bear with me, and read The Scorpio Woman. Okay, it’s a little lengthy, but it’s good. Read it, please. This is one of the most dead-on explanations of me, as a Scorpio, I have ever read (and believe me, I’ve read a bunch). Work with me, read this: http://mizian.com.ne.kr/englishwiz/library/names/zodiac/scorpio.htm#_Toc6672026

I’d like to hear the comments from those who actually know me. Do you think it’s accurate? Some of you may be surprised at some of the things it says. I was. There were several times I thought, “Wow, I just did that!” or “Yes! I was thinking that at the time.” The critical readers will have something to say, I’m sure. But do try to set that aside for a minute and see this as description of me.

Thank you.

Post-book Depression

I just finished the most recent book in Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight series.  The book is entitled Eclipse,  and I have been waiting for it since I finished the previous two, Twilight and New Moon, in December.  The books are geared for teenager/young adult readers, but I absolutely love them.  I must say that I am so glad that I read  New Moon before I came back down to Statesboro, because the book dealt with very emotionally charged situations between the characters.  My life began to to turn alarmingly like the life of the main character, Bella, in the months following New Year’s.  If I had to have read the book later, I could not have gotten through.

Don’t get me wrong.  It shouldn’t hinder anyone else from reading it, it’s just that my life is chaotic and dramatized.  I would have not been able to get through the book without recognizing the similarities and realizing the character’s pain is my own.  Very truly so.

I encourage everyone to read the books, although I am sad that I have read the final one… and the story continues.  I want more!  It does revolve around Vampires and Werewolves and it is a… not a “romance” but it does have romantic undertones.  What young adult novel with vampires doesn’t?!  But I like it!

Twilight

New Moon

Eclipse

Go read them!

Decisions at the Fork in the Road

I have a choice I have to make before tomorrow.

I can either graduate in December OR be in Marching Band for my fourth year.  I can either take a three-hour music class OR drop my music minor altogether.

I have some problems with my scheduling.  Marching Band and Concert Band both conflict with two of my must-haves for my major.  The conflict is so large that it cannot be overridden, I would end up being 45 minutes late to the Band Classes (unacceptable, say the Band Directors) or leave early from the Writing classes (unacceptable, says one professor).  So I can’t drop these writing classes, as I need them, they are not offered more that once this semester. One of them is offered next semester, but I wanted to be done by that time.

So, I could take Marching Band this semester and put off the class until Spring. Not wise, seeing as they like cancelling classes out from under students.

I’m having the same problem with my Concert Band, either 45 minutes late (Director won’t have it) or leave early from writing (I have the meeting with him tomorrow, he is likely to say the same thing).  And the Concert Band director is the sticky one.  He doesn’t like having people coming in even a little bit late, so he’s bound to be unmoving.

I get a plaque if I saty in Marching Band for 4 years.  Since I didn’t join band until my second year, I only just completed my third year marching.  I really wanted that plaque, presented by Dr. Fallin at the end-of-semester banquet.  I’ll also miss, if I opt to not do band, the opportunity to be recognized out on the field on the last home game.   Also, I’ll never be able to be in a Marching Band for the rest of my life… you don’t have flutes or piccolos in a drum corp.

But I do really want to be finished by December.  I still have the house rented through the year, but I want to be a little jump ahead of everyone else who will be graduating in Spring.  And I’m eager to be done with school.

I don’t know.  I am thinking I’ll just drop my music minor, since the only three-hour course I can take is Music History and it’s at 9:30 in the morning.  And I’ll not be in Marching (and most likely, Concert) Band.  It makes me sad, but Meghan isn’t going to be in either Band either, and she’s the main person that keeps me going on.  And there are a couple people that I’d like to rather not share band with.  Besides, some good things can come from this… I’ll be freed up to go to both AWA and DragonCon this year.  Also, life will be much simpler, not so hassled, so I could work on that Honors Capstone disaster.

Anticipating this decision, I registered for a Theatre class.  It looks interesting.  I know it sounds crazy, but I want to be an actress, preferably in Wicked as Elphaba, if not that, some other musical, or just on stage.  I let that dream cool among my efforts to get a degree for “the real world” but I would love to act.  With the free time, I could audition for plays.

So I guess I’ve made my choice, but it’s not easy.  I’m being forced to choose one thing or another, picking which one I want more.  I’m having a premonition that my personal life is going to be like this soon too.  I’ll start having to make tough choices that I don’t want to make, just so I can continue to go forward.  There is a lot of stuff, and people, that I am hanging on to, either for my feelings or theirs, that I may have to choose them or choose living without them.  But that thought is too painful and encourages tears, so I’ll deal with it when I come to that fork.